Pah!!!!!

To be honest i didn't really want my best friends wee lad trotting around wedding exhibition with us today...It's not really a place for a small 4 year old to go wandering...So i arranged to meet her at the venue whilst he was at his drama class...All well and good but it gave us about 45 mins to have a gander at the displays...Of course at these events you get asked when are you getting married so she was the one pretending LOL...It would have helped a bit if she hadn't spent half our alloted time chatting to this woman who plays the harp on where she could get lessons for her kids...They're too little to play the damned thing...Eventually i got her to move on and whispered to her to check out the tiaras just around the corner...To ask what the bases were made from LOL...Ok it would have helped if i had noticed there was another smaller table with tiaras on it...And guess which one she asked LOLOL...Yups the one that wasn't selling handmade ones....We're going back tomorrow ROFL...I have searched and searched and i cannot find any suppliers that do sterling silver tiara bases...Silver plate yes but sterling silver no...I really can't for the life of me see how some can charge so much when the base itself is only very cheap silver plated...I suppose if the rest is proper silver and with good quality embellishments then they can charge whatever...And hey they must sell or they wouldn't keep doing it...Of course my aim is to not just do the stuff i already have done in the past but to also do what i wasn't allowed to when i was at art school...I studied jewellery and woven textiles with jewellery as my main subject...I rather fancied sort of combining the two together...Basically i wanted to make knitted or more to the point crocheted silver, titanium or niobium wire jewellery of a sort...And that i am working on doing now except in coloured wire that is more designed for that purpose with st silver findings of course...Can you tell i don't like gold much LOL...Besides real 9ct gold findings etc cost a fortune...Anyways all the stalls today seemed to have a specific thing that they did...The stall my pal went to that i didn't want her to go to was the only one i saw that was selling a mix of wares...Favours, tiaras and jewellery...None of which were handmade or at least they didn't look it...Some of the cakes on the umpteen wedding cake design stands were awesome...Soaring castles and the like...Hmmm IF (and it won't happen i know) i ever find another fella and get married again i want a castle cake with a dragon on it <G>

Apart from the above my shoulder is killing me cos everyone in the packed exhibition was bumping into it and my feet are killing me...One place where i often buy bits and bobs of crafting and art supplies is possibly closing down....They have 3 shops here but the chain apparently is in administration...NOOOOOOOOOO i screamed...So i bought up stuff they had that i use before they suddenly close down on me...I sent off a pair of earrings i made for one of you and they have arrived and said person is pleased with them...Might put a pic up some time of them with permission...My shop that may be closing down didn't have a field sketch book in the size i wanted...Neither did the other art supplies shop...I think Asda have, well i hope they were where i also saw some...Tis either Asda or Sainsburys...I want to take lots of pics of the architecture here and maybe the trees and i have ideas swirling around my head for designs derived from those sources...I really need them drawn down on paper so i can get them out of my head and relax...Right offski for another surf to pinpoint some suppliers

Toodle pip tc xx

grey LOL

HAHAHA...Okies heres the deal...My father started going grey in his late 20s/early 30s, mum was white by time she was mid 40s/early 50s, both my sisters started going grey in early 30s and my brother around same age as my dad...All of them, except for dad as he died 21 years ago, have been rather narked that i haven't had any appear until my mid 40s...So they see me now having some and the possibility of some wrinkles as me finally showing signs of aging...Even my optician keeps getting narky that my eyesight hasn't deteriorated with age yet...Mind you everyone else in my family had dark hair and mine was always a golden strawberry blonde...It did start to darken when i was about 38/39 though...I've never really dyed my hair much either...I only started to colour it occasionally in my late 30s...And of course i dyed it purple a couple of years ago as i'd always wanted purple in my hair...This was due to big sis having purple highlights when she was 18 and i was only 9...To be honest i think i deserved to be white as snow and wrinkled like a prune by time i was in my early 30s due to all the stress with the boys LOL...My sisters and mum now i have a few say am catching up and showing signs of being OLD...Apart from my dad we're a fairly long lived family age wise anyways so i am a merely stripling really...It is only a number anyways but if it makes those close to me feel happier i now have signs of my advancing years so they can call me old then that's fine with me LOL...Oh and Jane M has had several white hairs since he was a toddler and he at 16 HATES people teasing him that he has grey hairs

Awww bless

Awwww bless him my strapping 17 year old G came home from school yesterday in his taxi with 2 bunches of tulips for me and a box of choccies that he knows i like...The choccies i am saving for when i stop feeling so sick...One bunch of the tulips is a purpley lilac colour and the other is white...See he remembered i like purple a lot :o) And i got lots of hugs and i even got a kiss off him LOL...M is going to give me the money to pay me back for what i suggested he get me...I want an A4 sized sketch book...Well when i say sketch book i really mean what is classed as a field book...Bit like a notebook with unlined paper that is slightly better than writing paper and that you can take pages out of...Well i know exactly what i mean and what it is so it is easier for me to buy it and then he will give me the money for it...And he's happy with that being my pressie from him...My mum gave me money in her card on sunday and i am under orders to spend it on something nice for me...Not to fritter it away on nothing and not to spend on crafty bits...So am gonna have to go out and look for something...I would have used it towards getting my hair highlighted properly at the hairdressers but no point...My hair is being affected with all this crappy dryness as well so am gonna wait until i've stopped the treatment before i get it done...I may even have to consider covering some grey hairs as i finally have some which is so pleasing everyone ROFL...See Stuart GREY HAIRS, possible WRINKLES therefor i am OLD...Ok it may just be a couple of wrinkles and about half a dozen grey hairs but hey am catching up on older sis, younger sis and best friend who is 9 years younger than me <ggg> Big sis had put a photograph she had copied into my card...It's my dad when he was about 13 years old sat on outside window sill of the house he lived in :o) She also gave me a new black handbag and a perfume with matching body lotion set :o) ...One of my friends popped round at tea time with a bottle of expensive bubble bath for me...I know it's expensive because i went into the shop to look at stuff for christmas presents and walked back out again LOL...Me and my best pal are going to the cinema either tomorrow or over the weekend at some point :o) We'd go tonight but there is a big european footie match on near the cinema so we're not venturing down and having to queue for ages in traffic and then find it difficult to park...We just stopped at the chippy last night after i had picked the boys up from their Triple A team for something for tea...I couldn't be bothered cooking and i fancied fish and chips for my birthday tea anyway...No late birthday cards in the post today for a change...Damn as i always like to think my postie reckons am getting lots of valentines cards...Not had one of them for donkeys years LOL

There is a wedding exhibition on locally on sat & sun...I am going to pop along and see what it is like...Who is doing what and how much they are charging for stuff and just seeing how they are displaying their wares...I know i have my own thoughts on how i would display my stuff but if it's similar to others then i will need to change...Also i would like the details of the organisers so i can get in touch when i have enough stock made up and i feel i can actually do this properly...Anyways it is good to check out competition in any part of life...Oh crikey just had a thought...Going to a fayre like a wedding one in a working scenario means you need to dress sort of smartly doesn't it....EEKS am so not into dressing that way...Am an old scruffbag happier in jeans & T shirt which is prefectly fine for craft fayres...OMG me being smartly dressed will so please my mum LOLOL...On that horrifying though i will go see about making tea LOL

Toodle pip tc xx

The weekend

I took the train up to visit mum on sunday for evening visiting...My train was due to arrive at 6.45pm and i could get to the hospital in around 5 mins so i would still have an hour with her...Yeah right...Best laid plans of mice and men and all that ruined by a bunch of drunken, hooligan louts on the train...Firstly the train went dead slow and stop to get to the station at Dyce...Dyce is on the outskirts of Aberdeen and is actually part of Aberdeen...The track goes past close to my street and i could have walked on to the train from there it was so slow...Reason being the staff had been warned there was some eejit on the line walking along the line from aberdeen main station to the dyce one...So they had to go slow so they wouldn't hit the numptie if they came across him...But hey that was just the start...We stopped for what felt like an age in the middle of nowhere in the dark between inverurie and insch...No explanation but we got moving again after about 5 mins...Now i had some right numptie in my carriage who was pished as a fart and getting really aggressive...He kept going to the loo every 5 mins and not shutting the door behind him...And when i asked politely would he make sure door was closed he just glared at me...He got really abusive towards the ticket collecter blokey...Anyway at insch we stopped and for a few mins longer than just getting off and on...Then at the next stop which was Huntly we stopped and no-one could get off or on...A message came across the tannoy saying there had been an incident and Grampian police were dealing with it and we would continue on once it was sorted...Also no-one could leave the train until the incident was dealt with...So tum te tum i started getting worried i was making a journey for no reason...By that time it was getting nearer and nearer to my arrival time and still another station before i got to Elgin :o( ...I phoned my younger sis who phoned the hospital for me...She then called back and gave me the ward number...The nurse said depending on when i arrived i could stay a bit longer...Then the tannoy said sorry for the delay there was a serious incident that grampian police were dealing with...Lairy arsehole in my carriage decided he had had enough and he moved into the next carriage...Where he proceeded to force open the door so he could leave the train...Rendering it unusable...So that carriage got partially vandalised, well the door did...When we eventually got moving i phoned the hospital from the next station as i had no signal until then...The first person i spoke to said i could maybe stay an extra 5 mins and i burst into tears...Told her i was on my way from abdn on the train and we had been held up and my sis had already phoned...That there would be no point in me bothering to leave elgin station to get to the hospital for only 5 maybe 10 mins of time with mum...She handed me over to the senior nurse on duty...She was so lovely and said it's ok i could stay until 9pm but not longer than that as some of the ladies go to sleep then...I said thank you and i would have to leave to get train home about then regardless...I eventually got to the hospital at 7.50pm...Mum looks awful :o( but she got home yesterday...The cellulitis had flared up really badly again...And her lymphodema was bad... But bless her my older sister had taken her down to the hospital shop...And mum had bought me a birthday card there...Big sis had also left me a pressie and card with mum...Which i have partially looked at <slaps hands>

As you know i am having this monthly implant injected into me...Well it has not only made me feel extremely nauseous for 8-9 days after but also dried my skin out something chronic...My skin is naturally dry at the best of times but now it is like sandpaper and quite frankly disgusting...This time my mouth is also very very dry :o(  YEsterday i got an appointment to get more painkillers for my shoulder so i spoke to my GP about it...My body is basically being overdosed with female hormones...This is causing the excessive dryness of skin and mouth and the nausea...There's not a lot i can do about it...As i said a few weeks back my older sis had me get my face done at a lancome counter...I spoke to clinque person tonight and she suggested i spritz it all the time with their hydrating stuff...She spritzed my face for me earlier when i was in boots and it was drier than the sahara before i got to asda across the road...Am drinking so much i told my GP i'd need a catheter LOL...Big sis the part of the pressie i peeked at is a bag full of sample sizes of lotions and potions from various brands...Bless her i do love my sis at times :o) I hope my skin recovers once this treatment is finished...Am gonna end up with WRINKLES if it gets any drier <sobs> Ok so am supposed to get them cos am old (45 tomorrow) but hey am quite chuffed that i don't have many at all so far...Especially none of those fine ones around the eyes...Secret ladies is that i have worn wraparound shades since i was a teenager...IT could be winter and i will have them on at the slightest hint of sun...My eyes are very sensitive to the sun and wraparound shades i have always found best...And am sure that is why i have no fine wrinkle lines around my eyes...Well few as am sure there are some if you look close enough.

Train home was delayed by 20 mins...When i got on the train i found out why...It was the same staff from the earlier one...And because of all the debacle on it and them being late at inverness it had knock on effect...The staff legally must have a 30 min break between journeys...The ticket collector also told me what had happened and why we sat so long at Huntly...Him and the other staff member and the driver had tried to remove some out of control passengers at Insch...Because they werte unsuccessful they called police to Huntly...These louts were not young lads but older guys...Ranging from 20s to early 50s he reckoned...A full scale fight broke out and they vandalised the carriage they were in...The police did nothing except to try and calm them down...They didn't remove them nor did they arrest or charge anyone...But they hadn't sent enough policemen for the police to be able to do much :o(  They did manage to remove 3 of the offenders at Elgin station...The ticket blokey said on 18 years working on the trains he had never seen anything as bad...He kept apologising for what had happened on my outward journey...I told him the hospital had let me stay until 9pm so he was pleased they had done that for me...You know we always hear about young teenagers being drunken, aggressive vandals but we rarely hear in the media of the older lot who can be just as bad if not worse...But the thing i found really astonishing is none of the other passengers in that carriage were willing to be witnesses to what had gone on.

Apart from that K being at home visiting made the weekend a nice one...She got me another dragon for my birthday :o) We went out for a meal on saturday tea time :o) And am gonna have to stop typing as it hurts too much having typed for too long for now

Toodle pip tc xx

Crappy couple of days

I know it is mega mega late but i've not had time to do this entry before now...K is home for the weekend but she didn't get here until nearly half past midnight...Taxied from Dundee courtesy of Scotrail because her train was late so she missed the last connection...I was allowed to open my early birthday pressie and it is another gorgeous dragon :o) Sadly the shop in Edinburgh where she gets them from usually is CLOSING DOWN...How dare they do that to me <sobs> And it was closed so K managed to find one in a small jewellers but it was their last one...They don't get them in very often <sniff> The only other place i know is in Peterhead :o( 

I have felt extremely nauseous since my injection on wed morning...Which is a pain with having to eat to take the painkillers...And i can't do without them yet :o(  ...Mum was taken poorly on wed and ended up in hospital on thurs...And it is the hospital up north and of course am barred from and unable to drive to see her :o( ...The train times are not visiting times friendly either and the nurses i have spoken to won't give me any leeway...So i wasn't sleeping much being worried about mum and feeling sick and still having very painful shoulder...I was sick in the early hours of friday so i fell asleep after M left for college...To be woken up by the phone...Thought it might be K or one of my sisters phoning but no it was my brother...Now my delightful brother hasn't phoned me at all since he moved to where he lives now which is at least 5 years if not more...He's never seen fit to give me his phone number and he's ex directory or even his address...And he was rather angry and being really quite nasty on the phone :o( ...Demanding to know if i knew mum was in hospital and when i knew as he'd only been told 10 mins previous...Well hey if he actually phoned mum or visited her then he would know she's not in best of health and deteriorating a lot...He only lives TWO miles as the car goes and about a mile as the crow flies from mum...But he always says he is too busy to visit her and he never bluddy well phones her either...Am 64 miles from mum and i phone her at very least every 2nd day...But no he expects everyone to be at his beck and call and i came off the phone in tears...He was slagging off both my sisters and being downright rude and nasty about everything...And being so gobsmacked i said little back to him or i would have said a few choice things myself...But when my younger sister did that he slammed phone down on her and 10 mins later was in her workplace shouting and swearing and sticking his finger in her face...And you know i wouldn't put it past him to have come all the way here and done the same to me...Neither of my sisters slept at all on wed night...They had doctor out to mum in middle of the night and then her own GP out on thurs morning...And then my older sister took her to Elgin A&E and she was admitted...They were both too shattered to phone anyone on thurs night really...As they say you can choose your friends but not your relatives but it's not pleasant when it's your own sibling being so damned horrid when your mum is ILL...She was scanned today as they thought she might have a blood clot in her leg but it's clear...The cellulitis is back :o( ...And they are giving her too much diabetic medication in their as well <sigh> Oh delightful brother said he was going to visit mum tonight and he would phone me when he got home...Hmmm still waiting for the call.

My best pal took me to asda as the airbed thing burst somewhere and i couldn't be bothered looking for the leak and to patch it up...I've driven too much this week :o(  Think i will have to restrict my shopping to a tues when i have to drive the boys to club...So am only driving twice until it improves...Am almost out of painkillers and they wouldn't repeat prescription them...So need to phone on monday and see if i can see my own GP and get some more...And i hate to say this but i fell and did in my right side, especially my shoulder...Well Ally has now done the same and i do believe in things coming in three's...So yous be careful as someone else from J-land is gonna end up like me and Ally...Oh and i was offline from thurs afternoon until fri afternoon with no connection full stop...Will leave that for another entry...Have a pleasant and SAFE weekend everyone

Toodle pip tc xx

Can't sleep so decided to type in here LOL

Tomorrow  well really later this morning i have my 3rd injection...I guess it must be doing the trick as they've stopped totally...Also despite the hospital doctor saying my flushes would get worse my own GP said it may relieve them or stop them and hey they've stopped too...Two drawbacks...I feel mega nauseaus (sp) for a week after having it and also my skin is dry as a bone...My skin is dry regardless but it's so dry now you can visibly see my forehead flaking...I've tried umpteen creams and lotions and as we've had an Aldi open up here just before christmas am going to try there tomorrow...Apparently according to reports they have a fantastic el cheapo range that is flying off the shelves and does what all the expensive lotions and potions do...Well a couple of quid is worth a shot, better than the £15 or £20 for stuff that didn't work.

K is coming home this weekend to visit as it is my birthday next week :o) Smiley is for K coming home not me getting older LOL...Have to rope the boys into helping me clean up a bit as the place looks like a midden...Google it if you don't know what one is <g> Seriously a lot of chores have fallen by the wayside with my knackered shoulder and it is seriously pissing me off...I drove them to and from club tonight and my shoulder is killing me again :o(  I cannot keep asking favours of people to chauffeur my lads about...K is bringing me a special pressie YEAH...Not a birthday pressie just something i wanted...Once i have it and instal it and can work it then i can get going on trying to create a reasonable looking website :o) ...The mum from M's school who is a cariacturist paid £400 for her website to be done for her professionally and quite frankly it is extremely basic and a bit pants IMO.

Having had a serious think and getting all fired up due to me offering to do K a couple of very simple bracelets i really want to do the jewellery thing again...I will go and see about getting advice on how to go about this...Maybe weddings are the route to go down...See for my younger sisters wedding i made her a 'horseshoe' from K & G although he was only 4 months old at the time...What i used was the material left over from the flowergirl dresses...Cut that into approx 9inch wide by 4 inch high heart shape...Decorated the front with 'pearls' and crystals and used the 'pearl' string for their initials...The 'pearl' string around the edge also created a looped handle...Now that could be adapted to ring pillows, small for favours and also as 'horseshoes'...You know something i am MAD...What i want to do and how many things i want to do seem rather daunting and an awful lot for one person to do alone...But if successful could create me needing someone to help me out and for that i could use K as a part time job for her whilst she is at uni...Especially the jewellery which although simple to do looks fab and can be done fairly quickly,,,Cards, favours, tiaras and other hair accessories would take longer...Then again i would put up a notice saying at least 4 months warning required...I know there is a lot of competition out there but there are more and more doing it and there is a market...People like something different and apart from the jewellery which can be quite similar then i think i could make it work...I've looked at various packaging websites and the bloke i got the business card off they actually appear to be amongst the cheaper companies and one you don't have to buy hundreds off of at a time...I just can think of a catchy name yet...I want the word design in it and possibly my name...Or creations rather than design...Hmmm.

Well as you may have guessed i couldn't sleep as my head was buzzing and my shoulder is aching...G is on study leave and off tomorrow so i get an extra 75 mins in bed LOL...He has a prelim on thurs so he is going in to the base to study tomorrow...But he is going in at lunchtime and taking the bus in....He reckons he may have a B for last weeks advanced higher tech studies prelim...A B grade in advanced higher is supposed to equivalent to an A in higher...His higher physics he reckons he has an A pass in that no problem...And it is it that he needs at least a B in for the conditional offer...K she has asked me to link her journal here...She hasn't written in it much but if anyone reads it then it may encourage her to write some more in it <g> Am going to try the sleep thing again now LOL

Ponderings And Thoughts

Toodle pip tc xx

PS: Rach i think i have literally just thought of a solution (you know what am on about) i will try it out in el cheapo wire first and see if it works...But after K's visit

Well i trotted down to the physio appointment today...The place i have to go is only about 5 maybe 10 mins walk at the most from my flat which is handy...Means i don't have to pay to park in hospital grounds and spend forever and a day finding a parking space in first place....So i got this lovely male physio...He checked my details were right then he wrote notes on where i was hurting and then asked how i did in my shoulder...I did wear a vest top under my sweatshirt as having been to physio before i knew i'd probs have to undress a wee bit...So he pushed, pulled, poked and prodded then came to conclusion i had in 'technical' terminolgy given myself a good old dunt and a half LOL...Because there are so many muscles, ligaments and tendons in that area he wasn't able to identify any specific ones that have been damaged...Probably several he decided after all the poking about...So i need to buy a couple of heatpacks or wheaties...I need to heat one up and put it on my neck for at least 5 mins, then do the neck exercise he wants me to do...Then do same with my shoulder except it's a different exercise...To do as much as i can without being in pain or badly aching...If i do ache or am in pain to stop and change to other arm...To not drive too often yet and definitely not long distance...Which is a pain in the bum as i really want to go and visit my mum and my sisters...But hey ho can't be helped...It will take a while to get back to normal but that's just how it is and hopefully i can be driving properly sooner rather than later...Especially as it's my younger sisters 40th birthday next month and G's 18th 3 days after hers.

My sis me and mum and older sis are clubbing together for her pressie...I think i will make her some jewellery similar to older sisters as well...As for G well am still flummoxed as to what to get him...Males are a pain to buy for at best of times but for a special birthday ARRGGHHHH...Gonna go do tea before that gives me a king size headache again LOL

Toodle pip tc xx