just a quicky lol

Ohhh am cheesed off and frustrated.  Mon is weightwatchers night lol.  I wanted to lose 2lbs this week so i could get another *sticky 7* lol.  I lost 1lb <sigh>  Oh well never mind there is always next week :o)  Remembered when my meeting was :o)  So me and another from group went to it.  The leaflets look so so much better and way mor professional now.  Also no need to make a website as we are being affiliated onto one now :o)  Just as well am as technical as a marshmallow <ggg>  Youngest been good today WOOHOO!!!!  Mind you it ain't bedtime yet lol so hope i ain't spoken to soon.  They were both at footie training tonight so hopefully that will have taken away any frustrations felt for today.  Footie reminds me i must book a pitch for week sunday.  Fingers crossed i can get one tis eldest lad birthday next week and i said how about hiring small 5 a side pitch for an hour so him and mates can have a kick about.  Cheaper than a party <ggg>  Been sorting out all my card stuff today.  Bought some tiny flowers to use on them.  Want to go out later in week and buy some punches and wire and work on doing more ideas.  Off to play a quiz so toodlepip xxx

Smiling cos of dragons LOL

Well today got rudely awakened by eldest at 8am <shudder> needing in as door was locked.  She'd spent night with a friend and friends dad had woken them up at 7am!!!! so they could go swimming LOL.  So she was after swimming gear.  Unlocked door and went back to bed <ggg>  Youngest has been fine today except for not wanting to talk to girlfriend on phone.  He hates speaking on the phone but i keep telling him he has to try to when it's his girlfriend or she'll dump him LOL.  Decided to be brave and take boys into town in afternoon.  Eldest had probs with gamecube and turns out was him doing something wrong not the actual controller as he thought.  Am totally dense with these things so wouldn't have a clue.  So he also decided he'd have a look at everything whilst in shop so he could tell me the several games he'd like for birthday which is soon.   He's been told no way is he getting like £200 of games!!!!!   Daughter was a darling yesterday and cheered me up no end :o)   Shop in town was closing down and owner had told her 2 weeks ago and said come in day we are closing and i'll give you a good deal.  So taking my money i got for my birthday 3 weeks ago she wandered off to the shop.   Am now pround owner of 3 new biggish dragons.  I love dragons and have a few of varying sizes and types.  This 3 are the biggest i have yet though.  Now i need to clear a space so i can display them lol.  Ok was my dosh she used but it still put a smile on my face for first time this week :o)  Tomorrow will be busy so my mind should be taken off all my worries bout youngest.  Me (secretary LOL) and chairperson of local aspergers support group are having a meeting with someone who can do our leaflets we have come up with better than us.  But dozy here has forgotton what time and was me phoned to make it lol.  I swear i wrote it down but this past week has been so stressful i can't find it.  Brill secretary i am NOT.  Oh and chair has decided as she is computer illiterate she will leave me to make an appointment to get help with building a website!!!!!!!!   Poor woman is under impression that i AM computer litterate just because i can turn the thing on and send email <ggg>  On a good point i have forms to fill in for the NAS so we can be affiliated with them and appear in their information stuff about local groups.  Shame although we have resonably sized membership we have few come to meetings.  Maybe we will get more in 3 weeks time and a better turnout after we have a stall at a local information fare for families of children with special needs.  Hopefully one day i may even manage to use all my knowledge about coping and dealing with the boys to help others as an actual job.  Would be nice am not much qualified for much else.  Anyways offski to admire my gorgeous new dragons. Toodlepip till next time :o)

Stressed to bits but hey de ho thats life

Never having really kept a diary before i finally have taken the plunge and started this so bear with me LOL.  Everyone has those times when life seems to be looking brighter then it all crashes down round about you.  Just had one of those times.  After getting a break from the darlings for first time in 3 n half years (and very much needed) just been hit with that huge sledgehammer again knocking me back to reality that is autism.  As you can see on the left both my boys have special needs.  Eldest lad is aspergers and youngest autistic.  Would like to state for the record autistic spectrum disorder is NOT a life sentence but it can be tough going on the family at times.  Youngest i moved to a different sen school in aug 2003 and he improved leaps and bounds and came on so much was amazing.  Ok had the odd bleep as you do in that time but on the whole was vast improvement.  In last 3 weeks things have slid backwards again :(  He's had some altercations at school and tired to run out of school.  School dealt with it and phoned to warn me he'd had a bad day so would more than likely be in a mood when he got off his taxi.  Last weekend he went to day respite and got in such a tizz he ended up picking up a small table and chucking it at one of the workers.  At home he banged a door open so hard he's broken one of the glass panes.  He also refused to get put under so his teeth could be attended to at hospital.  No-one knows what is troubling him deep down as the most insignificant tiny thing is setting him off on one.  So now am waiting to have him seen by psychiatry with hope in getting some kind of medication given to him.  He can be the loveliest most polite, caring and wonderful lad and at click of a finger turn into the demon from hell.  Upside is he is going to make a card for the worker he hit and apoligise.  I decided to start writing everything down in a journal as i have always regreted not writing anything down in the past as i could more than likely have written a book about my experiences over the last 13 years with both boys.  Just now i do think it could be hormones kicking in as they do with most teenagers.  Autism and hormones just don't seem to mix.  They are confused enough without adding teen hormones into the equation LOL.  In saying that eldest lad doesn't seem to be having any visible problems with the good old hormones.  Says she tempting fate <ggg>  My break away did me the power of good and also made daughter feel important as she brother sat LOL.  The little toerags behaved impeccably for her.  TYPICAL lol.  Now i know they will be fine for her and she is capable i have to make the most of it before she goes away to uni in sept.  She doesn't want to stay at home to do this and i am both happy and worried at her moving away from home.  Happy as i want her to be able to go out and make a life for herself away from the trials and tribulations of what she has grown up coping with.  Worried cos am MUM and well it comes with the job doesn't it <ggg>  But i am an extremely proud mum as so far she has been accepted at 2 different uni's and waiting to hear back from 3 others.  Anyway think this is enough of a start as i have to go offski and play chauffeur again and maybe go for a swim whilst the boys are at club.  Ttfn x